Monday, February 7, 2011

Home

At one point during my bike ride today, I started to feel like it was too hard - too much effort - just too much everything...and I reminded myself how great I would feel once I got home. I would get dry and warm, my muscles would relax and the effort of the ride would release hormones that would give me a bit of euphoria and I wondered that maybe that is what Michael felt this weekend.

As his entire body struggled to pull each difficult breath, maybe he was thinking how awesome it was going to feel to finally get home. Home to his Father. Home where his body could relax and he would be warm in heavenly embrace. Michael passed away yesterday, but I know the amazing fight he gave this weekend was for his family. He knew where he was going. Home.

You know how good it feels to come home after a long trip or even just overnight spent at the home of someone else - to our own stuff, our own space, our own people. Can you imagine what it must be like to finally arrive at our permanent home? I imagine it. I do. And I know Michael is home and living an extraordinary new life today.
He was the life of the party here, I can only imagine what's going on in Heaven today.

20 comments:

Small Town Runner said...

So sorry for your loss, Julie. I am glad that he is home right now though, and so is his Father.
Thanks for your post. Prayers for a healed heart and peace for your family.

Elizabeth said...

I am so sorry for your loss. A very sweet post and a great way to reflect. Thoughts and prayers headed your way.

Pam said...

Oh, Julie, I am so, so sorry. This is such a beautiful post. I'm so sad for you and your family but so happy for Michael. What a sweet relief to shed his human body that has caused him so much pain. Many, many prayers for you tonight.

Laurie said...

I am sorry to read about Michael. The pictures are obviously only a few seconds of his life but he looked like he enjoyed it and spent a lot of time helping other people smile(the giant grin on the giant slip and slide? I am smiling at him in that picture and I didn't even know him). Peace and comfort to you and your family.

Jen said...

Julie, I am so sorry. But your post was beautiful. I'm sure that he'll be smiling as you complete your 1/2 ironman. What great motivation and memories you'll have along the way.
Wish I could give you a big hug.

Kim (Book Worm Runs) said...

I am so sorry for your loss :( My thoughts are with you and your family during this difficult time.

Susan said...

Julie,
Thinking of you and your family. Your post is beautifully put. Thank you for sharing.
XO
Susan

Abby @ Have Dental Floss, Will Travel said...

Julie, your post gave me the chills. I'm so sorry to read this. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts.

Aimee said...

I am so sorry for your loss Julie. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Molly said...

I'm so sorry about the loss of your friend Julie, this is a beautiful post.

Julie D. said...

So, so sorry Julie. I love your analogy though about coming home after a long vacation. How good it feels. How amazing it must be for him. Praying for your family!!

Katie said...

I'm so sorry Julie. What a beautiful post for your cousin.

ratherthecouch said...

Oh my gosh...I have no idea who Michael is, but this makes me so sad! I'm so sorry! My heart goes out to you.

Teamarcia said...

Oh Julie i am so sorry for your loss. You're right though it is a homecoming. Rest in peace Michael.

My Life and Running said...

I'm so sorry for your family's loss. Are you doing the HIM through TnT in memory of him? I've never thought of the song in that way before... definitely changes it.

Julie said...

Thank you all for your prayers this last month and for your support this week <3

I will be doing the 1/2IM in Michael's memory and in honor of Mom. In fact, I just ordered my race bibs with their sweet faces on them at this neat website yesterday:
http://races2remember.com/Home.php

and I'll post pictures of the bibs when they arrive. The website is very cool!

Quinton J said...

xo

Julie said...

Thanks Q.
Miss ya.

PranaFlo said...

Julie,
I just clicked over here from Kovas' blog after you commented on my latest BF trail running report. I was surprised to read about your loss. It is so heartfelt and sincere. Blessings on your path and yes, he is in a wonderful place indeed. Peace on your journey fellow runner :)

-Barefoot Charlie

Julie said...

Thank you, Charlie.